Category: long covid

body, Brain, Letting Go, long covid, Mindfulness

Immune Response

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Color photograph of a plant seedling in dark soil, beginning to open a three green leaves from red stems.
Photo by Daniel Hajdacki on Unsplash

Thank you for protecting us. You were so brave. You did exactly what you needed to do to keep that mess from doing its worst. Considering all of the ways we could have been done in, all of the dangers at the door, it’s really a marvel that you knew just what to do. Your arsenal was stocked and you, skilled at using everything in there. You kept us safe. You have our deepest gratitude.

Now that we’re sitting down here together, we have something else to tell you. It’s important. We need you to hear this. Are you ready?

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activism, body, disability, health, long covid

Chronic Illness Storytime: Unrest

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Movie poster for the film Unrest. It shows a woman lying on a white bed with brain monitor cords attached to her head. The poster has movie information at the top, including icons some of the awards that it won.

You have to be able to hold two things in your head. This illness destroyed my life. But what it showed me, I could never give that back.

Jennifer Brea, Unrest

Please watch this film. It’s the story you didn’t know you needed. If you want to understand what Long COVID is about, all the articles and essays in the world won’t get you as far as Unrest. No matter that it came out in 2017 before the pandemic. The chronic illnesses that can ravage a body (and a population) after an infection have been around as long as people have.

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body, Brain, disability, health, Learning, long covid

Enough Already: Notes on Sensory Overwhelm (part 2)

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Image source: The Inspiration Room

Why is it not enough to just be a gas station? Why does it also insist on being an entertainment platform, an advertising space, and a point of sale? All I’m asking from the Shell station is a fill-up on my little Prius. But as I stand there, pump in hand, the doors to the convenience store scream with images of Lottery jackpot numbers, cryptocurrency, Marlboros, and every flavor of beverage. Then, as soon as I’ve activated the pump, an upbeat voice starts speaking to me. About what now? The latest fashions on the red carpet? Yes, right at eye level, an entertainment “news”cast video selling more more more. More products, shows, celebrities, a car wash, and an upgrade to premium gas. 

Enough already!

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Brain, health, long covid

Too Much: Notes on Sensory Overwhelm (part 1)

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Photo of a an exploding, flashing roman candle and the shower of sparks around it against a dark background
Photo by Jonas Allert on Unsplash

Last weekend, I attended afternoon tea. One of my girlfriends made a reservation at a fancy-pants tea shop in Old Town Alexandria for six of us a few months back. I was determined to go despite… well, everything. 

For two days leading up to this event, I rested as much as possible. I also cleared the schedule for two days after for recovery. It was going to be taxing but totally worth it. Right?

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activism, Career, health, long covid

In Praise of FMLA

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Photograph of a yellow cage holding many stacked cubbies storing a variety of safety hardhats
Photo by Pop & Zebra on Unsplash

In 1993, US President Bill Clinton signed into law the Family Medical Leave Act (FMLA). This was one of his first acts as president, and it was the fulfillment of a campaign promise to provide more protection for working families. His predecessor, George H.W. Bush, vetoed it twice despite widespread support for the bill. 

Signing this act into law was, unfortunately, the pinnacle of Clinton’s progressive agenda. He went on to gut welfare and pass NAFTA. Clinton’s presidency is a textbook example of neoliberal abandonment of poor and working class Americans, and by default, almost the entirety of the middle class. 

But at least we have FMLA.

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body, Brain, Creativity, health, Letting Go, long covid

Smoke Signals: Notes on Phantosmia

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Photograph of a single orange flower with smoke coming from the blossom and smoke all around.
Photo by Matthew Henry from Burst

Outside, someone was smoking. The stink leaked in around the closed front windows. It stung my eyes as I sat in my partner’s living room in an easy chair, slogging through a work task. This has been my setup for the better part of the past year: balancing on the tightrope between productivity and rest. Pillows, lap trays, things to hold my feet up. Sunlight. Headphones. Pomodoros.

I tried to ignore the smell but it grew stronger. I glanced out but couldn’t see anyone outside. The place is nestled in a cohousing community with a small group of neighbors. Some may light up the occasional joint, but no cigarette smokers. 

So it must be someone delivering a package. Or working on a neighbor’s gutters.

The smell persisted. An hour? More? I kept working and the reek kept lingering. No voices, no sound of hammering. Just birds and crickets, and as far as I know, none of them have taken up smoking.

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body, disability, health, Learning, long covid

Maintenance Required: Notes on a Crash

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Photograph of an old rusted out car sitting on a dirt driveway near a fence and some run-down houses. A cactus is growing next to the car.
Photo by Angelique Downing from Burst

In a Disney princess bag behind the passenger seat lives the crash kit. Here is what you’ll find inside:

  • One basic medium pillow
  • One fuzzy neck pillow
  • One blackout eye mask
  • One pair of Loop earplugs
  • One packet of electrolyte powder
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body, disability, long covid

Slow and Steady: Notes on PEM

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Shannon standing on the lookout of a mountain with a view of the sky and coast of Kaua'i. She has a goofy smile and has her hands turned up
A thousand lives ago on Nounou Mountain Trail, or Sleeping Giant (Kaua’i, Hawai’i, 2022)

Going through photos of the last trip before my life changed, I see her. That me is there, radiating all the pain and exhilaration of the little mountain she climbed with her partner on their first day in Kaua’i. 

I love that girl. She was hurting bad from a bum hip that would get replaced in a year, but she powered through it, sun-happy and heart-strong.

She started vanishing just a few short months later, replaced by a body-snatching invasion of Long COVID symptoms. 

The worst of those symptoms? Post-Exertional Malaise. 

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body, Brain, disability, long covid, Take Action

Calling for a Skycap: Notes on Fatigue

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Meme of a person smiling and reaching for a balloon that says "COVID is mild" just before the person is grabbed by a figure that says "Long COVID"

While we still have much to learn about long COVID, a growing body of research paints a worrisome picture, and more needs to be done to help understand, prevent and treat long COVID.

– Sens. Tim Kaine (D-VA), Todd Young (R-IN), and former Sen. Jim Inhofe (R-OK) in The Hill, 8/31/23

Imagine this.

You board that long haul flight woozy from too many hours of debauchery. Your center row seat wedges you between a fussy lap baby and a linebacker whose shoulders take up half your headrest. Plus there is the dude behind you who spends the whole flight playing a first-person shooter game balanced on the tray table at your back.

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body, disability, Dogs, Fitness, health, long covid

COVID-versary

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Me: I’ve been thinking a lot about where we were this week last year

Co-worker: Were we in WA? Where your whole life changed and you were so sick??

Me: That’s the place! I was about to be escorted off campus. But it was a great first two days!

It’s the one-year anniversary of my first (and so far, only) COVID infection and I’m spending it much the same way as I spent the week in 2022. Dizzy, queasy, exhausted, and trusting that work can get on without me. 

And bored. So very bored.

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